Gothic Soul

Ha ha. What’s wrong with that word? I mean, I use it as an expression and a certain someone thought of it as something offensive. I mean… Whatever! Ha ha. Get my point? I don’t really use it against anyone… I’m really used to saying that word… But that’s not really the reason why I’m in such a bad mood today. You see, there’s a certain guy, named J***** *N****, who deliberately planned on humiliating me in a conference. But, sorry dud. I’m used to being humiliated. Ha ha. Well, you see, he told me this line: "Wag ka nga sumabad, hindi ikaw ang kinakausap ko"… Then, after that, he told the barkada "Gusto ko lahat kayo magsalita" I mean…How stupid can someone get? After telling me to shut up, he wants everyone to speak? What a git. Oh well, I pity his uncivilized soul.

Here are my final words for you JOSSY: Gusto ko lang iparating sa inyo na kahit kay Anthony pa kayo kumampi, at siraan niyo pa ako sa harap ng mga tao, ibuhos niyo lahat ng galit niyo sakin, I DO NOT CARE. Karma will come, just wait for it. =)

EK-EK: Moi, I will train you on how to excrete manure tomorrow. Ha ha. Euniz: Hi apo!! =) ‘yun lang..Good Luck sa essay niyo ni Moi..

hay…s0rry gwen..=p alm m0 n un…hehe..ung "tmpuhan"

nweiz..hehe.. kya OL aq ngaun kc very busy nnman.. wla lng… cnbi q lng.. anyway, seryoso na: SORRY. That’s for everyone. You see, there are times that I hurt people’s feelings without knowing it… I speak before I think. I know I’ve changed (thanks Aya, for opening my eyes (= ), but I assure you, that forever-nakangiti-na-jev-na-nakilala-niyo-nung-first-year will always be here. =) I admit, nagiging moody na ako nowadays, but that doesn’t mean I’ll be a snobbish git forever… Wala na ako masabi…Basta ayun.. SORRY E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E.!

wla man mgsbi sakn, im 99.9% sure na nagiging masama aq.. dnt worry, d aq backstubber…n0r do i spill nasty rum0rs about people… (I ask the person mismo).. para cgurado, db?;) hehe..per0 dk0 nmn cnsbi kng knino galing…d aq chzm0sa n0h!! haha…

s0rry kng inf0rmal 2ng p0st q…parang txt msg nlang nga eh.. yakz.. and i call myself a goth. ack.. magp0rmal k jev! haha..ngmamadali n kc aq…

Ciao.

Well, honestly, I’m not really the type who’s grade conscious, but once you challenge me (especially if its behind my back), I will be your worst nightmare. You see, I have this "friend" at school, I treasured her like a true friend - until I found out that she always tried to defeat me when it comes to my grades. I mean, what’s wrong with her? I didn’t even try to challenge her… Well, if that’s what she wants…fine. And that’s not all that she’ll get…

Anyway, about Maguinsas, I don’t get why people hate us so much. Honestly, its not our fault. EVERYTHING you thought that we did, well, we didn’t. Honest. Teachers just think that its our fault because we are well known to be notorious… So? It doesn’t mean that we did EVERYTHING wrong… I know someone who tries to ruin our name because she desperately wanted to join, but keeps on being rejected. Ahem… Well, guess what? Its ‘coz you’re not a true friend! Okay, okay, I’ll stop now… I dont want to start a fight.

Well, not that happy, but atleast I’m not as frustrated as before. I was frustrated because of my flunking grades especially in Advanced Chemistry - its not our main science subject though. And…I decided not to be such a geek in Advanced Chemistry, so…goodbye frustrations! I just focus on Advanced Algebra and English instead. Ooh! I just love Algebra (even if I got an 81 during the 2nd quiz). Well, silly me, I labelled those that were supposed to be under >cf with <cf… and vice versa. But, oh well… Bumawi ako sa quiz 3. Yay! It feels so good to be excempted in the 4th quiz (Gawd, I’m such a braggart!). Hehe. Sorry about that.

Anyway, I got my ID yesterday…I look stupid! Feel na Feel ko ‘yung smile ko. It was horrible. Oh well, I never really got an ID with a good picture on it - or if ever I did get a good shot, it usually gets scratches and make me look…ugh…weird.

Community outreach yesterday. Ah, those happy youngsters. Oh - may chika ako! One kid there, named Stephen(?), he admitted that he has a girlfriend! Haha. And do you know what grade he’s in? Grade 3. Wow. And I really mean WOW. Kids these days…haha! It was fun, really. But tiring, yes. VERY TIRING. They were uncontrollable.

Anyway, I’m off now…toodles. =)

"No one knows the real me - even Ramon still finds me mysterious."

Ayan, Ramon. Na-extra ka nanaman. Hehe. That was a part from my txt message for Cicar. We were talking about the…well, you know - the break-up. I don’t really want to talk about it - I’m not like the others who’d probably cry their eyes off. I don’t want to get emotional - especially when it comes to guys! Geez. Anyway, moving on to the blog proper (hehe), it seems that people are blaming me for what happened. It’s not just my fault! You want me to clear things out? Sure.

As we all know, I am the type of person who wants to be surrounded by a jolly atmosphere. And HE is the type who’d get so emotional and stuff. So, automatically, the people will think I’m the person who did the wrong thing, and they’d go and hate me, blame me, whatever. Even if they don’t know the whole story, they just keep on hating me. Go hate me, I stand for what’s right. Be like fools and be blinded by pity. Nagagalit kayo sa’kin kasi naaawa kayo sa kanya kasi nagkakaganyan siya. Ano akala niyo sa’kin? Nagkakaganyan din ako. Pero wala akong balak iladlad sa public. Ewan ko ba kung bakit may mga taong ganun. Ah basta. So yeah, I still have feelings for him, but I won’t shed a single tear for him. You may call it pride, but I call it hatred. So, ayun. Balik na tayo sa quote ko kanina.

"No one knows the real me"

And seriously, no one talaga, except myself. I am myself. I know what’s good for me. I make my own decisions…And there’s no better author of the story of my life than myself. My life will forever be a mystery…So be it.

Well, first of all, it’s because of my website. The server’s down, and my host told me that I should create a backup. She gave me full instructions…but I simply can’t change my password - nor could I login using my FTP account. URGH!!! Next, my grades are flunking! I don’t know why…especially in Chemistry. ANOTHER URGH!!! There are alot more things, but I’d rather not include it here.

I got my PACT-POIS result last week, and I couldn’t believe what I got. Numerical: 747 (or something like that) and Verbal Pilipino: 383 (or something like that). My highest and my lowest. Call me a bad filipina. Guess what? I’m compatible with…Engineering. Of all the courses. And nursing. But honestly, I’m not interested. Haha. I don’t know why I love Journalism…Hmmm. Speaking of courses - the UPCAT will be on the first week of August! I’m scared…

I’ve always been out this month..Last week, I watched Garfield 2, and today, SUPERMAN! Hurrah! Brandon Routh is so HOT! haha. He’s a good superman. =) Next week, well…Secret. But yeah, I’m sure I’ll be partying! Well, I’m not really a party animal. Haha. Uhmm…I don’t know what else to say… I dont really talk about SUPER personal things on my blog..So if you want to know…send me an SMS! Haha. (Sorry Moi) Just kidding! =)

I missed the PRISM screening today. What a bummer. I’ve always wanted to become a staffer ever since 1st year, but I always miss the screening. Well, I guess that’s what I’m destined to be. And, oh my… If you’ve seen me during the Dramatics Guild screening, you would’ve died of laughter. Well, let’s not talk about it. I hated what I did. It was so not me. Besides, I’m not the type of person who’d cry over a guy. I mean.. oh please!

Oooh. There’s this homework in english where we have to put our face on a goddess’ body. I took certain personality quizzes (to make sure I’m really compatible with the goddess), and I would usually get Athena or Hestia. Athena, we’re both counselors (Though, once again, I never got the chance to join the PCO). Hestia, we’re both soft-spoken - I mean, we don’t want to hurt anyone. But both Goddesses have one thing in common: THEY NEVER MARRIED. Hahaha! We’ll see in the future. =) But I guess I’ll be using Athena’s body. Well, after all, Equal-Rights-Between-Women-and-Men is my middle name. =)

Adios!

  I just love LUCAS GRABEEL!!! Love his voice. =)

If you smile at them, they’d think you’re pacute. If you don’t, sasabihin suplada ka. If you respond agad to his love, they’d think you’re easy-to-get. If it took years to decide, sobra pahard-to-get. If you go with another guy, tingin sayo, playgirl. Pag stick ka sakanya, sasabihin dead na dead. Pag tinanong siya kung saan siya galing, sasabihin overprotective. Pag pinabayaan naman, sasabihin nanloloko lang. If you lety him kiss you, he’d think you’re cheap. Pag pumalag ka naman, hahanap ng iba! Girls are just HUMANS. We too commit mistakes, and we often wonder, "BA’T ANG LABO NIO, MEN?"

That was from a text message sent to me by MaeMae, a certified feminist. Don’t you agree, girls? I mean, it is true. It doesn’t mean that they’re called the "Breadwinner", doesn’t mean they get to be all picky - not to mention supreme amongst us women.

I don’t know what else to say. The message says it all, don’t you think? I guess MaeMae opened my inner feminist, too. Women should be treated with equal rights as men.

"I’m gothic bot because I want to be ‘IN’, nor do I love black. I’m gothic because I’m strange, and I’m loving it."

Its true. I guess some people just want to be under some sort of "social group" because its what’s ‘IN’. I mean, come on, its so pathetic. Like some people I know (no offense), who used to call themselves "punk"…But when the reign of the Punks faded, which was then replaced by Hiphop, they started calling themselves "Ghettos".

All I know is, if you call yourself a Punk, Hiphop, Rocker, Prep, Goth, Skaters, etc., you should know its essence by heart. You can’t just go around proclaiming to the world, "I AM A _______". Pfft.

I’m sorry if my first blog post was so… offensive to some. But don’t worry, hindi ikaw ang pinatatamaan ko - isa lang pinapatamaan ko.

I hope you’re reading this, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.